Fibromyalgia ruined my life mentally, physically, spiritually as well as occupationally. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in 2014 while working in the pharmaceutical industry. It was during this time period that I was subjected to bullying for two and a half years.
I’ve often said that bullying was the perfect storm which caused me to be diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. According to the Mayo Clinic http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/fibromyalgia/symptoms-causes/d , Doctors don’t know what causes fibromyalgia, but it most likely involves a variety of factors working together.
These may include but are not limited to:
- Because fibromyalgia tends to run in families, there may be certain genetic mutations that may make you more susceptible to developing the disorder.
- Some illnesses appear to trigger or aggravate fibromyalgia.
- Physical or emotional trauma.Fibromyalgia can sometimes be triggered by a physical trauma, such as a car accident. Psychological stress may also trigger the condition.
I knew that when I took this job it really wasn’t a good fit for me and that I should have walked away a long time ago. To be honest the reason why I didn’t is because I was making a very nice income. But, on the flip side I thought I could potentially turn things around and stop the bullying. Boy, was I wrong. It was unlike anything I have ever experienced. The people that I work with; some were good people and some were bad people. Many of them had issues with people of color.
They were not the type of people that you can turn your back on without fear of being stabbed in the back. If your back wasn’t turned they would try to stab you in the chest; they just didn’t care. They were dysfunctional and downright evil. It was a very hostile and combative working environment. I used to do a lot of crying about this situation it and I would say “God I’m yours, why am I in this environment?” Like I said so many times I really wanted to leave, but I stayed on due to the money. But, it wasn’t just the money. God showed me that it’s not about me. He put me there for a purpose and I now understand what that purpose was.
Sometimes God will put you in situations or in places to shine the light to help someone else in need. Sometimes it may be one or two people or a handful of people where God has called you to be the light on the job. He places us in situations to be a blessing to others to help them. Once your job is done God will move you on. And that’s really what happened to me and God moved me on, but before he moved me on oh my goodness. I encountered a lot of battle scars.
I am a Christian and what I experience was spiritual warfare. Satan’s presence was so thick in that place, the best example I can share with is the following: I would drive to work and when I arrived, I could feel a heavy evil presence. It was as if this presence was trying to enter inside of me. Due to the power of God it couldn’t enter me. But, I could feel its presence. Sometimes I had difficulty breathing and one day one of my employees said “Ms. Necie there is some bad mojo working up in here can’t you feel it? That could be the reason Ms. Necie why you have not been feeling well.” And when he said this to me, it really caught my attention because I’m a Christian and this individual was not professing Christianity, but he had an awareness as to what was going on and what I was experiencing.
The bullying grew increasingly worse and I sought help from the senior management staff. Everyone knew I was being bullied and yet they would not help me. They would say things such as “if we help you we’ll have to help everybody.” Well they had already been helping a lot of people, but they refused to help me.
I was asked to resign from my management position and report into my colleagues whom were bullying me. Now, how much sense does that make? You want me as a manager to step down from that role and to report in to the people who are bullying me… They also reported me to Human Resources, the stress that was inflicted upon me was very insidious. They were trying to destroy me body, mind, spirit and soul.
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